thankful

Today is our PDL session..
and there are something happen about it..
anyway..
I am thankful.

Its not easy for me to say thankful becoz I am a person that not good at giving thanks..
Maybe its easy from my mouth, but not from my heart.
Oh well, people just need to learn..

I am so thankful becoz I got a wonderful conversation with axel.
We chatted for a long time in msn tonite..
wow.. there are no hiding secrets and the presence of GOD is there!
I am so amazed.. He has told me some weakness that I don't even realise its wrong.
Its all start from my mouth.. and we shared about our struggles and problems..
at last, we asked for each other's prayer needs and end the conversation..

I was so longing for inner circle conversations.
Because through that, I can learn alot, people can see my weakness
and they point it out because they hope that I can grow and become a better person.
I was keep praying that people can just tell me my weakness directly.
So I can keep moving onwards.
I don't want to scared to make mistakes, because no matter what, we make mistakes.
But through mistakes, we can choose to accept and learn from it,
or just ignore and stay the same..
It might be hurt when people point it out, but actually that's my prayer!
Actually I want God to tell me directly, so I don't need to guess..
unforunately, God didnt answer me...
God uses others to tell me.. thankyou tuhan!!! makasih tuhann!!!

I promise I will make a change! and I will keep reminding myself about it!
getting a new inner circle with my club...hurray!!!!