im still a human, not a monster.

Im still a human.
what do ppl expect from me?
im still a human.
i have my own feeling.
im a human that i dun want ppl treat me like monster.
im a human that i dun want a close friend cant even understand my feeling.
im a human that i dun want to have any expectation from ppl.
im only a human.



you need my support? you need my understanding?
why you will need a monster's support?
why you will seek a monster's understanding?
why you will treasure our friendship?
everything are just WHAT YOU SAID, but not FROM YOUR HEART.
selfish thinking EVER!
so a monster dun need support? i never want to be the monster!
so a monster dun need understanding?? you never try to understand!
so a monster dun treasure our friendship? because you said you scared of SATAN!
and SATAN makes you scare of me!
if you treasure our friendship, you WONT cover your eyes
and dun ever DARE to take pictures with me!
YOU WILL BEAT THE SATAN if you treasure our friendship.


i really really want to find you, joiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.
but i know, baby natey is coming out soon.
and i dun want to disturb that happy and excited atmosphere.
maybe im just never suitable to be in that atmosphere.
really really miss you.
u are always my best comforter.
thankyou joii..
thankyou for always accepting who i was and who i m.


Jesus, if you are really Jesus,
why you dun stop these people to hurt me.
i can only seek you right now.
no one else i can find,
no other place i can go.


i have nothing left.