Lunch timeee^^

Today I went to Joii's house with kero..
Joii's mum cooked a lot of food for us...
ayam goreng.. speical rice (i know inside hv lemon grass and fried onion..wht else?!)
hmm.. and gizzard with potatooesss.. and one more, the potato chipss gorengg..
chit chat with joii, nat2, kero and joii's mum..
love these girls' chat2 time.. always love to do that..
we talked about high school bully problemss.. moviess..
and the retreat..and pastor Rajan..( I am the only one among the girls that I never met him before)
everyone shared a lot of Ps. Rajan..
and there is one thing that really shocked me..
Ps. Rajan dun have any hobbies.. if you ask him what is his hobby..
He is going to say no hobbies..
and if you ask him what he usually do when he have time..
He will say when he has time, he prays.
He can even keep fasting and keep praying for people..
His prayer is always so powerful..
as His Holy Spirit is so stronggg...!!!

oh my godsshh.. don't know why somehow..
I got scared.. I got scared of his faith to God..
that is so powerful..
and even I didn't saw him yet..
I can sense very strongly that his relationship with God is super close..
I really want..>< but I still cant really give up the food and spare time....
I always prefer to watch youtube..play facebook.. or chatting with my girlfriends..
If I need to pray in a room alone? I think the longest time I did is 1 and a half hour..
and then I will got disattracted by other stuffs..
arduhh... I really want that kind of CLOSE relationship with God..
It seems that God and him are the best buddy with each other..
how ya? well.. i know how.. but i just can't give up...

mix is right.. If I need to commit something..
I need to give up something and put the effort in..
that's how it works..
mann.. can I focus on my keyboard??
well.. so hard..
everytime I got so emotional when I cannot understand and memorize the chords...
I really want to try my best.. but I just can't control my emotional..
Tonite.. I prayed before I practise the chords..
I prayed that God will give me strength to keep the faith for my first dream..
God just keep refilling me with His greatest Love..
It makes me cry.. keep crying...><
The love is so strong that I don't want to stop praising Him.
I don't want to give up my talent because I am lazy.
I don't want to give up the talent that God gives to me..
and I can use it to praise Him and worship Him...
With God, nothing is impossible..
Love it...>3<